A Timely Prayer

So far to go 

(Taken from Valley of Vision)

Holy Lord, I have sinned times without number, and been guilty of pride and unbelief, of failure to find Your mind in The Word, of neglect to seek You in my daily life. My transgressions and short-comings present me with a list of accusations, but I thank You that they will not stand against me, for all have been laid on Christ. Father, Go on to subdue my corruptions, and grant me grace to live above them. Lord, please do not let the passions of the flesh nor the lustings of the mind bring my spirit into subjection, but God rule over me in liberty and power.

I thank You that many of my prayers have been refused. I have asked amiss and do not have, I have prayed from lusts and been rejected, I have longed for Egypt and been given a wilderness. Go on with Your patient work, answering 'no' to my wrongful prayers, and fitting me to accept it. Purge me from every false desire, every base aspiration, everything contrary to Your rule. I thank You for Your wisdom and Your love, for all the acts of discipline to which I am subject, for putting me into the furnace to refine my gold and remove my dross.

No trial is so hard to bear as a sense of sin. If You should give me a choice to live in pleasure and keep my sins, or to have them burnt away with trial, give me sanctified affliction. Deliver me from every evil habit, every accretion of former sins, everything that dims the brightness of Your grace in me, everything that prevents me taking delight in only You. Then I shall bless You, God of jeshurun, for helping me to be upright.